I think I forgot how tough this part of pregnancy was, last time around. My body is so tired, and I am so ready to meet the little one. At 38 weeks pregnant, I am over being pregnant. And this last few weeks, and the waiting game it entails, is so tough.
At 38 Weeks Pregnant…
How big is baby? 38 weeks pregnant, baby is the size of swiss chard.
Weight gain: My weight is actually staying steady at this point, which is great news!
Symptoms: I am tired. I am really, really tired from the moment I wake up, and I keep falling asleep with Brooks (accidentally) when I put him down for nap each day. My hands, feet and ankles are swollen. Contractions continue to be really sporadic.
Appointments: Well, for the second week in a row, my OB has been called to a delivery. So I saw a nurse practitioner, instead. I appreciate that my OB (and only my OB) is going to be at my delivery, but I am also frustrated that I haven’t been able to talk to her, and address some of my questions and concerns.
Because of my “advanced maternal age,” there are concerns about when I deliver this baby. She asserted, pretty early on, that she really didn’t want use to go beyond 39 weeks, and would be really nervous if we went beyond 40 weeks. Well, as I post this today, I am 38 weeks and 4 days, and I won’t see her until I am 39 weeks and 2 days. I am trying really hard not to panic.
But, anyhow, the baby still scored 10/10 on his ultrasound/NST. He is so low, that we couldn’t see his face on the ultrasound. I was 1 cm dilated, but not effaced, at all. The nurse practitioner was less than helpful, or hopeful, and told me to just be patient. Not helpful.
I left the appointment, got in my car, and cried. I feel really frustrated, and worried, and “in the dark” as to what the next steps will be.
What I’m loving about pregnancy: I am trying to enjoy my last few days and weeks of this big belly, and being able to feel the baby move. I am also trying to enjoy just being pregnant, because this will be the last time I experience this.
What I’m missing most during pregnancy: I am missing that “normal” feeling. At this point, I feel like my body is not my own. I am bloated, uncomfortable, and just…big. I will be excited to get back to feeling normal, in time.
Cravings and Aversions: Still not craving anything, or having any aversions. There are so many sweets in my house, and I learned very quickly that I need to avoid them. But otherwise, I am just happily eating my normal, boring meals.
I am looking forward to: I am looking forward to having the baby. I am very anxious, waiting for things to start. With all of the monitoring and concerns around my age, I am worried about the possibility of induction. I would love to try and get things moving soon, so that induction isn’t even on the table, but nothing seems to be working.
Our family: We had a wonderful Christmas this year. It was so fun to watch Brooks enjoy Christmas, and the magic of Santa. He eagerly left cookies and milk for Santa, and carrots for the reindeer. And he was so excited to see gifts appear, magically, under the tree. We are already excited for next Christmas, with our two little ones.
Currently reading: I am still re-listening and reviewing some sections of Mindful Birthing, to really absorb some of the pain management techniques that are discussed. I am also listening to The Birth Hour podcast, because it just feels nice to listen to other women talk about their birth experiences. It makes this final stretch feel a bit less lonely.
To read more about being pregnant with my first at 38 weeks, click here.